Alright, Mit, there really is no easy way for me to put this because I know you won't like what I'll say. The chief reason why I keep asking for critiques don't exactly have anything to do with a lack of self-confidence. Instead, it all amounts to being nice and the fear of any sort of consequence for choosing not to follow it. If I had my way, I'd produce anything without a care in the world and get everything produced at a much faster speed. While I don't have a problem with making changes, it's just when the critiques are forced upon me instead of simply optional changes where I feel very uncomfortable. Therefore, I have to constantly make baby steps in my work just to keep the critiques under control and the changes more bearable.
Originally, I was thinking that the overall harshness from you and others with a similar mindset was warranted to an extent and that you guys knew better than me. By following your advice to the best of my ability and behaving myself, I’ll receive better treatment; however, I'm realizing that this was not even a realistic option in the first place. In spite of winning you guys over from time to time (although I wonder how sincere those moments are), it is now painfully obvious that it’s an uphill struggle with no real payoff. I could draw like Leonardo da Vinchi as far as I know (even stop “sugarcoating” everything I say), yet I doubt how much of an actual difference it’ll make because you’ll still find some other reason not to be truly satisfied. It all just boils down to an invisible hierarchy where the people who act and think like you from the get-go receive the most benefits. Besides driving myself miserable, the worst part about struggling with your standards is unintentionally discounting the numerous people who actually think I'm smart and talented. Say what you will, but I honestly care about them because they're way more supportive and respectful than you guys give them credit.
I wanted to bring these issues up several times before and I actually have every now and then. Sadly, those attempts backfire due to not only a bandwagon effect against my favor, but how you guys paint yourself as the actual good guys. Besides calling me out on my own flaws (even if they are nothing more than assumptions you gathered from shallow observations), you also hid behind seemingly well-crafted arguments that make it sound like you know what you're talking about. With critiques that are more like nitpicks (i.e. Mario’s line of action), I have good reason to believe that you’re just looking for ways to vent out any frustration towards people like me. Even if you’re just trying to help, how you provide it is causing a little more harm than good.
Now, since I want to complete my puppets by the end of spring, I request that I'm allowed to follow my own instincts without fear of any penalty. I'm still open to any suggestion I'll receive in the future, but I don't want so much as passive aggression over a blunder since that’s highly counterproductive. Also, I would deeply appreciate it if this applies for anybody else you and your friends interact with. I get that there are really stubborn people out there that you just want to smack in the face, but sticking to the high road leads to less trouble in the future.
By the way, I took your advice into consideration, Mit. While I discussed why I shouldn’t follow the more stressful advice anymore, I'm not petty to the point where I dismiss it. I probably got this right anyway, but please don't look down on me if this is not what you had in mind at all.
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Alright, Mit, there really is no easy way for me to put this because I know you won't like what I'll say. The chief reason why I keep asking for critiques don't exactly have anything to do with a lack of self-confidence. Instead, it all amounts to being nice and the fear of any sort of consequence for choosing not to follow it. If I had my way, I'd produce anything without a care in the world and get everything produced at a much faster speed. While I don't have a problem with making changes, it's just when the critiques are forced upon me instead of simply optional changes where I feel very uncomfortable. Therefore, I have to constantly make baby steps in my work just to keep the critiques under control and the changes more bearable.
Originally, I was thinking that the overall harshness from you and others with a similar mindset was warranted to an extent and that you guys knew better than me. By following your advice to the best of my ability and behaving myself, I’ll receive better treatment; however, I'm realizing that this was not even a realistic option in the first place. In spite of winning you guys over from time to time (although I wonder how sincere those moments are), it is now painfully obvious that it’s an uphill struggle with no real payoff. I could draw like Leonardo da Vinchi as far as I know (even stop “sugarcoating” everything I say), yet I doubt how much of an actual difference it’ll make because you’ll still find some other reason not to be truly satisfied. It all just boils down to an invisible hierarchy where the people who act and think like you from the get-go receive the most benefits. Besides driving myself miserable, the worst part about struggling with your standards is unintentionally discounting the numerous people who actually think I'm smart and talented. Say what you will, but I honestly care about them because they're way more supportive and respectful than you guys give them credit.
I wanted to bring these issues up several times before and I actually have every now and then. Sadly, those attempts backfire due to not only a bandwagon effect against my favor, but how you guys paint yourself as the actual good guys. Besides calling me out on my own flaws (even if they are nothing more than assumptions you gathered from shallow observations), you also hid behind seemingly well-crafted arguments that make it sound like you know what you're talking about. With critiques that are more like nitpicks (i.e. Mario’s line of action), I have good reason to believe that you’re just looking for ways to vent out any frustration towards people like me. Even if you’re just trying to help, how you provide it is causing a little more harm than good.
Now, since I want to complete my puppets by the end of spring, I request that I'm allowed to follow my own instincts without fear of any penalty. I'm still open to any suggestion I'll receive in the future, but I don't want so much as passive aggression over a blunder since that’s highly counterproductive. Also, I would deeply appreciate it if this applies for anybody else you and your friends interact with. I get that there are really stubborn people out there that you just want to smack in the face, but sticking to the high road leads to less trouble in the future.
By the way, I took your advice into consideration, Mit. While I discussed why I shouldn’t follow the more stressful advice anymore, I'm not petty to the point where I dismiss it. I probably got this right anyway, but please don't look down on me if this is not what you had in mind at all.
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